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Name: Lindsey
Country: United States
State: New York
Birthday: 5/27/1983
Gender: Female
Interests: GAMES (computer games, board games, console games, you name it), anything that has to do with the brain (go go neurobio), writing cryptic poetry, attempting to play the piano, travelling all over the world, watching movies (especially ones with lots of action), getting into random debates with my roommate Tweedie, bitching with Anita (hehe bitch club), and spending time with Karthik (awwww, I know).
Expertise: Obsessing about med school and finding new and innovative ways of wasting time online. Oh yeah, and I'm a bio major, so allegedly that's my area of expertise.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Medical
Message: message me
Member Since:
3/3/2003
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| YAY I'm home!!!  And wow, I can actually access my xanga site from here. That's a total shocker because I really didn't think this stone age computer could handle it.  It's so depressing how slow it is. How did I exist with this clunker all through high school??
I'm still in my pajamas as I type this. It's great. It's already starting to get dark, and I've been sitting around in them all day.  A tiny bit of snow is coming down, which is beautiful to watch when you don't have to be anywhere. I love just spending time in the house, especially during this time of year. Houses at Christmas time are so cozy and inviting.
Our tree is all decorated as of last night when we had our tree trimming party. I got made fun of for the tree I picked out since it's kind of skinny, but I like how it's so tall and unique. And this time we could fill every square inch with ornaments.  Last year's tree was absolutely gigantic, like the one in the Nutcracker AFTER it grew. hehe.
Our parties are always so fun, even though this year I got roped into playing the piano for everyone because the guy that usually plays the guitar couldn't make it. We sang a bunch of songs in a really dysfunctional fashion....I should've videotaped it. We butchered every single one. The only decent voice out of all of us was this one lady who sang "Silent Night" and "Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer" in Japanese. She was so good that she put us all to shame.
I have a few pics of the whole shindig (as you expected, I'm sure), which I'll put up when I get back to Ithaca on the 31st or 1st (I haven't decided yet). No USB port on this computer so I can't upload them. 
Hmm I dunno what to do with myself now. It's such a weird feeling; I'm really not used to it. I can't really play any games on this computer, which sucks. Karthik was right....I should've brought my computer home with me from school.
....Maybe I'll go read or watch some tv.
Oh yeah, the class ring that I ordered finally came in!!! It's so pretty...I love it.  Thanks to my dad, mom, and kathy!!! Such an awesome Christmas present.
It looks exactly like this, only in white gold instead of yellow gold. | | |
| 3 days to go, 3 exams.  Biochem
is really working on shortening my lifespan. Too many metabolic
cycles to memorize, and it's driving me crazy to the point that I'll be
spouting out words like pyruvate dehydrogenase complex in my
dreams. Wow, this stuff was soooo watered down in high
school. I really had no idea. 
Glycolysis, Citric Acid Cycle, Beta Oxidation of Fatty
Acids.....they're all gonna get so messed up in my head when I take the
exam on Monday. I've studied for a really long time, yet I feel
like I still don't know anything. 
While I hate all this ridiculous memorization, you gotta admit that the
fact that all of these things are happening in every cell in your body
is completely amazing.  So much recycling going on that I've come to the conclusion that God HAS to be a treehugger.
Right now I think my fatty acid synthesis is working way
overtime. Since the bday party I hosted for Tweedie and Amy on
Tuesday, I've eaten nothing but cake and chocolate. We had so
much cake left over (because I was stupid and ordered a full sheet cake
from Wegmans) that we had to freeze part of it like a wedding cake
since there was no way we were going to eat it all.
The icing is INTENSELY SWEET. Oh man. It makes you feel like you're going to go hyperglycemic.
The birthday girls! 
Playing Apples to Apples - great party game cuz you need a ton of people to make it really funny.
I love games....seriously I could play them continuously. Tweedie
and I have been playing them every single day this week. It's
been great. Every day is like a sleepover.....well, with some
unfortunate studying in between.  Alright, LOTS of studying, but that's typical for us.
Still, I'm so ready for this semester to be over. Words can't
describe. I bought myself an early Christmas present because I
just couldn't resist. This might sound odd to you all, but I've
been wanting a remote control airplane realllly badly. I've
always thought old planes were cool, and this one is a P-51
Mustang. I can't wait to
fly it. The weather sucks right now, so I have no idea when I'll
be able to. Yes, I'm a nerd. I won't deny it.
Anyway, I'm gonna go to bed now because I can't be tired tomorrow when
I'm trying to study biochem. It's my last day to learn all of
this stuff. Yikes. I'm starting to get a little
nervous. My other exams shouldn't be too bad, though. I
think this will be my last xanga entry before Christmas because I doubt
I'll get around to writing anything before I leave. Have a great
break everyone!!  I'll be back in
Ithaca on December 31st to work in my lab during the winter session, so
if any of you Cornell people are in town and wanna meet up, let me
know. 
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| And now, the xanga entry you've all been waiting for. Answering
the question of: what the hell has Lindsey been doing for the past few
months?? Well, let's take this back to where I left off.....
Genetics.....dropped it. Life is joyful again.
Unfortunately, that was AFTER I spent fall break here counting flies
every day. Oh well, it was a strategic move to avoid wreaking
serious havoc on my already questionable GPA. 5 credits of a
not-so-great grade would've really screwed me over. Next
semester, when I go for round 2, I'll be prepared. I wish there
was a way I could be a bio major and not have to take it, but it seems
that's not possible. *sigh*
As a result of dropping the evil class, my semester has been abnormally
painless. 3 classes plus playing around with cute little mice in
my research lab = 12 credits. That equals lots and LOTS of free
time, for which most people wanna kill me. Therefore, I've been
packing on the extracurriculars....the nursing home and the Mental
Health Association of Tompkins County. I'm really getting to see
all kinds of manifestations of the brain not working properly....from
Alzheimer's and Dementia, to ADHD and Autism. It's really cool
for me.
Even though this semester has turned out to be fairly easy (and I feel
guilty about that), it has definitely not been without its hardships,
mostly emotional struggles. After genetics really got me down, I
faced getting back my MCAT score. I have no problem with talking
about now, but I've pretty much gotten over it. Basically, I lost
a point after all of the work I put in last summer. Yeah, it was
all for nothing. There isn't anything I hate more than wasting
huge amounts of time when it's really precious, and I could've been
doing something so much more worthwhile than studying for that crappy
test, just to lose a point off my bio score (when I really thought that
section of the test was on the easier side). Well, the best part
of it is that I'm never taking it again. It just wouldn't be
worth it and the med schools probably wouldn't like it. As it is,
they're gonna have a lot of fun asking me why I re-took it to begin
with, just to get a lower score. As if they don't already have
enough to pick on me for.
Anyway, as a result of all of that, I spent a large part of the
semester in a bit of a depression. I've never experienced it
before, but now I know that it's exactly as bad as they say it is.
Still, despite all the doom and gloom, I've had some really great times
with people this semester. Fall break with my dad and Kathy was
awesome. I took them on a typical Lindsey tour of the place,
doing a lot of the same things I usually do with visitors...you know,
the usual trip to the Farmer's Market and such. 
I also introduced them to bubble tea, which they absolutely
loved. Now they want to start a chain of bubble tea places at
home in Annapolis. hehe.
I also took them to Watkin's Glen, prepared to hike this
time. It's such an amazingly beautiful place. It's
hard to believe that nature can create sites like this, and so close to
home.
Here are some pics from the whole visit:
Dad and I at Beebe Lake.
pic with Kathy (aka Kow)
Behind the waterfall at Watkin's Glen. I like this pic because it's cool how the camera resolved the falling water.
Karthik trying to throw me into the gorge. Such a nice bf.
Pic of our backsides. hehe.
The next big event after fall break was my 2-yr. anniversary with Karthik on October 23rd. 
It's ok, you can all say it...awwwwwwwwww. Yeah it was an
unforgettable day. First, he took me to my favorite place to have
brunch, Diamonds. I'm so addicted to their food. Then, he
FORCED me to drive to the mall. hehe. We went inside and he
MADE me show him this sweater I had really wanted from Abercrombie,
which he bought for me. Such coercion.
Then, we went back to my apartment and I gave him his gift...an X-box,
which I have since gotten a lot of use out of myself. hehe.
After that, we went to his place to hang out, and he gave me ANOTHER
gift, a new memory card for my digital camera! Before, I had
about 16 MB (really sad, I know) and now I have 128 (quite an
improvement, I'd say).
Then, for yet another surprise, he took me to the clocktower and had 3
of my favorite songs played for me while we sat on the slope and
watched the sunset. They played "A Whole New World" from Aladdin,
"The Moonlight Sonata" (which I still need to get the sheet music for),
and "Everything I Do" by Bryan Adams. It was incredibly
romantic. 
We took a ton of pics because now I can basically take as many as I
want with my new card. People looked at us like we were crazy
because we took like a million from the top of the clocktower, since we
couldn't get the lighting right. We learned the cardinal lesson
of photography (which I had realized before, but since forgot) that you
can't shoot from a dark place into the light and expect the picture to
come out. Anyway, here are some of the better ones we took:
Some aerial shots of the campus....
And then of us sitting on the slope...
Wow, super close up. ^_^
After sitting on the slope and being all romantic and stuff, we had
calzones, watched Aladdin (which I haven't seen since Spanish class
back in high school), and ate lots and lots of ice cream.
It really was a wonderful day. Especially because we got to spend
the entire day together, which doesn't happen too often here at
Cornell.
Since then, the last major thing in my picture archive was my cousin's
wedding on October 29th. I flew down to Atlanta for that, and
even though it was a huge fiasco getting there (with cancelled flights
and re-routing to cities I never thought I'd end up going to), it was
well worth getting out of Ithaca for a weekend. I was there for
less than 48 hrs. unfortunately, but I still got to catch up a little
bit with my cousins, whom I haven't seen in a ridiculous amount of time
(it's pathetic since it's not like they live on the other side of the
world). The ceremony was in a gorgeous church overlooking Stone
Mountain and the reception was in this really swanky country
club. The whole thing must've cost a fortune. In fact, my
mom and I were trying to estimate how much the whole bill would've come
to, and we couldn't even fathom it. It was quite a show, and the
food was delicious. All of the people that I met were nice, with
the exception of one of the groomsmen, who was a complete ass.
He's a resident right now and spent the entire time trying to tell me
that women shouldn't go into medicine. Of course that went over
REALLY well with me. *SNARL*
all the groomsmen. The first guy on the left is my cousin Andrew,
the second guy is the ass, the third one is my cousin Tim (the groom),
and the others I can't remember their names.
Bethany, the bride (obviously). I thought she looked beautiful.
The whole wedding party.
So cute
At the country club
The fam (aunt, uncle, cousins, and cousin-in-law or whatever you call it) 
Wow, this xanga site has really turned into a photo album. Oh
well, I think pics are more fun to look at anyway. I can't
believe how long this entry turned out to be. AIYA. Hope you enjoyed it. Or better yet, hope you actually made it through all of this. hehe.
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| Oooh boy do I have a lot to write about. The next entry is going
to be the mother-of-all entries. Plus, I have a ton of pics
to post. I'll get to it
eventually, guys. It's just a matter of a) I'm lazy, and b) There
are some things I really should take care of first. In the
meantime, I'm leaving you in suspense. So stay tuned.
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| Fall Break tomorrow!! I really
need it. The past few weeks have been especially horrible.
Just like sophomore year. A real blast from the past, only
worse. I don't think I've felt this shitty in my entire life
before. Or this apathetic. I'm really just going through
the motions, not wanting to do any of my work. Part of that can
be attributed to senioritis, but mostly it's just general blahhness.
I just feel like I've been doing a half-assed job of everything
recently and that's not me at all. I feel like I don't have
anything under control. Like my life is spinning out of
orbit. (Damn astronomy analogies.)
I've done nothing but whine and complain about genetics all week since
I got my prelim back. Oh it was almost comical how bad I did on
that one. Definitely have never seen a grade like that before.
Not even in orgo, and I can tell you without a doubt that I never
understood that subject. I still to this day have no idea what's
going on with it, beyond the minimum I learned for the MCAT.
Genetics I feel I understand to a degree SO FAR. I can mate
something with something and have a good idea of what I'm gonna
get. Of course, that's just the basics.
But anyway, the understanding I THOUGHT I had was NOT evident on the
prelim. Of course, I sat down and re-took part of it without
looking at any notes, and I got most of the questions I had missed
right. THAT pisses me off. It's like the information was
just hiding somewhere in my brain, waiting to come out when I DIDN'T
need it. My neurons are conspiring against me, I swear.
....Oh well, I get to drop my lowest prelim score anyway, and it better
be that one. It's just disheartening that I wasted my freebee on
the easiest material. *sigh*
So yes, this is what has been bugging me to no end recently. It
has really permeated everything, which is so stupid and I know
it. Meanwhile, everyone is starting to think I'm suicidal or
something because I've been receiving an unusual abundance of letters
and goodies. Don't worry guys, I'm not jumping off any
bridges.
Thanks to Katie for sending me chocolate chip cookies, chocolate bars
(hehe big emphasis on chocolate here), and awesome music. The
package couldn't have come at a better time. You are the sweetest
person, and I am so lucky to have you as a friend. Miss ya lots, hun.
Thanks to Karthik for being there for me and cheering me up with bubble tea and oreos. I love you so much; you're the best.
Also thanks to everyone else who listened to me complain incessantly - Anita, Tweedie (my biatches)
I'll be back to my old self soon enough, I think. My dad and
Kathy are coming to visit this weekend, so that should be a lot of
fun. Hopefully the weather will hold up so we can go
hiking. It kinda sucks that I have to go in to the fly lab every
day to count flies, but the Drosophila experiment is almost over and I
can't complain because it was 10 million times worse in previous
years. But anyway, I'll probably have to drag them with me when I
go. After all, you can't get the full Cornell
experience without seeing a bunch of frantic pre-meds high on ether,
huddled over microscopes on a Saturday afternoon. Maybe I'll put
them to work while I'm at it. hehe.
Alright, I think I've rambled enough for one entry. I better go
finish cleaning up the apartment and then go to sleep at a decent hour
for once.
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